Fool’s Courage

by undisclosed

oh captain

I am restrained

bonds I engaged myself

I am drowning

I continue to plunge my head

under

I am not seeking death

far from that

hear my name, I want life

more blessed in the man

who has one stone

in which to place his foot

in front of him

than I the miles

of path

to streams of noble desire

yet is separated from it

by a chasm of nothing

so I stare

    dream

    fantasize of those streams

and I sit

    warm in the sunshine

    lost in empty fields

Oh Captain!

I want to face those harsh

cold winds

I want to drudge against

the odds

it all looks so desiringly

noble on paper

theory has become my

best friend

but it’s killing me softly

every time I test those

waters

I respond with wise ignorance

knowing it will be cold

wanting only the honor

those icy waters bear

not the distance it takes me

so I turn with a shiver

how I detest my despicable

self

I am my own worst enemy

I am a self loathing heart

that beats only when

absolutely necessary

with no intention to beat

again

not to encourage life

only to discourage death